No Idea What To Do?!

So I just bought a pair of size 9 jeans and they are too tight!!! I feel like such a lard and on top of it I feel like a lazy failure!  I have no idea how I did this before and now I am struggling to get back into it. I worked out 3 days last week and not at all this week. I mean I still have the rest of the week and I plan on working out tomorrow. It is just way too easy to say I don’t want to do it today I would rather sit on the computer and play my sims game.  I have cut pop out for the most part and when I got home and tried on the jeans and realized that they were to tight I threw out a half full carton on ice cream.  My biggest problem is dinner. I am good all day until dinner and then I really don’t feel like cooking so we just order a pizza. I can eat half a pizza by myself! Which is what I did for dinner tonight, we did go shopping tonight and we picked up some chicken and beef so I will be able to make dinner for a while. But I don’t get home from work until 6:30pm sometimes 7pm and by then I don’t feel like cooking a meal. My husband is next to no help. He can eat what he wants and still lose weight. He lost 10 of the 15 that he gained back from the honeymoon.  We still have to take Molly for a walk tonight so I will get a little bit of a work out in tonight. But now I guess I have a goal, to fit into those jeans!

How Long has it Been?

Well it’s been a while since I last wrote. I am now happily married and I came within 1lb of my goal weight of 135lbs. Which made me very happy, I was able to fit into my wedding dress and it looked amazing. The dress actually fit perfectly, they didn’t have to take it in or let it out. However, as far as my weight loss goes I am having some trouble. See I gained about 7lbs on my honeymoon and I can’t seem to find the motivation to lose it. Now that I don’t have a wedding dress to fit into and pictures to look good for. My weight is bouncing between 142lbs and 139lbs and I can’t seem to keep it off or get any lower. I need help finding motivation to keep going and not gain it all back!!

Weigh In #11

I am now down 16lbs!! I lost the pound that I had gained over Christmas and I lost an additional pound, so that puts me at 138lbs! This is the most weight that I have lost in my whole life, I can hardly believe it.  The best part is that I am not using some fancy new diet; it is all just being healthy and working out. I am still able to eat the food that I love. I still eat pizza more then I should, but now I know how to go about it. I try to eat my fruits and veggies, I stopped snacking (and if I do need a snack I try to eat something healthy), I am working out more. I know that it is not going to just happen. It is hard work.  I still need to work out more. I was working out 6 days a week and now I am lucky it I do it 3 times a week. But I laid the foundation. I try to keep my calories about 1400 a day and I am still able to lose weight.  I have 3 more pounds till my wedding goal is reached, anything on top of that is just icing on the cake.  Oatmeal for breakfast, usually soup and crackers for lunch with maybe some fruit, and about 500 cals for dinner, and that is what I usually eat during the day. Once in a while I will have eggs for breakfast, but I am not an egg person. Lots of veggies and protein and you will stay full longer.  Only 4 ½ months till the wedding and 3 months till my fittings, hopefully I can make it. Wish me luck!

Tomorrow Never Comes...

So I am having a hard time getting back into working out. I keep saying to myself that I will do it tomorrow and I never end up doing it. I haven't worked out once since I got back from my mother’s for Christmas. I did workout at her place once the four days that we were there but that was it. I am starting to eat better again and to watch my calories again. I haven't been doing that either. I started that back up yesterday, I am hoping to get a workout in tonight but we will have to see. I will be getting home late the rest of this week. I know that that is not an excuse. I have 3 months to lose the weight that I need to lose for the wedding and with this attitude I will never do it. I know I have said in the past that tomorrow is another day and that you should never give up, however that does not mean that you should keep putting it off till tomorrow ( like I am doing right now lol). If you keep putting it off till tomorrow then tomorrow will never come and you will never reach your goal. The tomorrow is a new day is for if you are working on it and you happen to have one bad day. This is motivation to not give up just because you have had one bad day. But what I have been doing does not apply to that. I am putting it off and if I keep doing it, not only will I not lose any more weight, I will gain back all that I lost. There are no easy fixes if you want your results to last. Fad diets and such only lose the weight; they don't teach you how to keep it off. Working out and watching what you eat is the only way to do it and to have it last. I am not saying that you have to change everything that you eat, but you do have to work it in. I am allowed 1400 calories a day; if I want to eat candy or a pop I look at the calories in it and add that to my daily intake. I keep a little notebook with my all the time and I write down everything that I eat. It’s not as hard as it sounds. You just have to watch your portion sizes and the calories in those portion sizes. So to lose 1 lb. a week we need to burn 3500 calories, that is 500 calories a day. Its little things that add up, like having one less pop a day (or cutting pop out altogether), parking at the back of the parking lot and walking a little bit further, working out for an extra 5 minutes, taking the stairs, etc. They all add up, and you need to keep with it. You can't just do it for a week and give up if you don't see results right away. It is something that you need to keep at and not give up on. Keep trying it will happen. I also promise that I will keep trying and that I am going to start working out again.  I will do it tonight!!

Weigh In #10

So I gained a pound back over the holidays, not to bad in my opinion. I now weigh 140 again. My sister told me that most people gain 5lbs over the holidays, so I am considering myself lucky that I didn't gain any more. I actually lost 2lbs around Thanksgiving and I gained one back over Christmas so I have still lost 1lbs over the holidays. Now that the holidays are over I will be able to get back to my healthy eating habits and start working out again. Those 2 things have been my biggest problem over the holidays is eating all of the goodies and not working out. I did workout once at my Mom's but she has a wood stove and it is really hard to control the temp, one day it was almost 90 degrees in her house. That is to hot for me to workout in. I normally have my apartment set at 70 degrees and that is still to hot, for the longest time I would turn the AC on to work out, even when it was colder outside. So I only have 5 more months till the wedding and that means that I only have 3 months to lose the weight that I need to lose for my dress fittings. I have 6 more pounds to lose (since I gained one back) before I am happy with my weight for my wedding and honeymoon, however I have 16 more to lose before I reach my goal. I don't think I will be able to lose that much by April but I am going to try and lose as much as I can. That will be my New Years Resolution, to lose my last 16lbs. I will do it by the end of the year if not by my wedding. Let me know what your weight lose goals are for the year... Wish me luck!

Weigh In #9

So I reached my goal! I am now under 140lbs, I am 139lbs. I can't believe it, I never thought that I would still be losing weight. This is the most weight that I have ever lost in my entire life!! I am now down 15lbs and counting. My fiance is now in a size 34 jeans and has lost roughly 35+ pounds. It is so much easier that we are doing this together, it makes it easy to support eachother and stop one another from eating things we don't need to eat when we are doing this together. So my reward for reaching this goal was to try on my wedding dress. This is something that I was really scared about and was wanting to keep putting off. What if it still didn't fit? I was 145lbs when I bought it and last tried it on and it would zip but was super tight. Since I had bought it I went up to 154lbs and did not even want to think about trying it on again. So trying it on now was something that I was really nervous about and almost put off. However, I went over to my Mother-In-Laws ( I keep my dress over there to prevent Molly's hair from getting on it and also I don't want Faithful my cat to pee on it or something) to try it on. She helped me get into it and zipped it up... It went up without a problem!! OMG I was so happy I can't even tell you. It was even to big in places and that is the best feeling in the world. So I have another 4lbs to lose before April to be content with my weight for the Wedding/honeymoon, however my ultimate goal is to lose another 15lbs and get down to 125lbs. My next short term goal is to get where I am content at 135lbs. I am coming up on my one year mark since I started to lose weight and I would like to think that I am a success story, even though my story is not finished yet. I have 15lbs to go. I am hoping that it wont take another year to lose these 15lbs, I don't think I will. Last year I didn't really work out all that much ( I didn't workout during the summer at all) and I wasn't eating all that great. I am still learning but it's nice to know that what I am doing is working and I am doing it the right way. Diet and exercise is the only way to go, fad diets don't work in the long term. That is something that I have learned and I am going to stick to trying to be healthy. Which my BMI is now out of the overweight zone and now back into the healthy zone!! I am now healthy. My Fiance is almost healthy, when he started to lose weight he was just inside of obese and is now out of obese and almost out of overweight!! I am so proud of him. He was about 205lbs when he started and is now down to 170lbs. His goal is to get down to 165lbs, which is a healthy weight for his height and size. Wish us luck!

Weigh In #8

I know that I haven't posted in a while, our computer has been on the fritz!! It is so annoying, but anyway I weighed myself on Friday last week and don't ask me how but I lost another pound!! So I am now down 14lbs in 10 months!! Yay, only one more pound till I reach my next goal!! But the reason I was so surprise was because I hadn't eaten good at all that week and I hadn't worked out either. My sister-in-law went into labor
early and she had asked me to be in the delivery room with her. The problem is that she lives 4 hours away, but I did make it on time and was able to be with her when the baby was born! However, I spent 2 nights eating in a hospital and the rest of the time at my Mom's who isn't exactly a health nut. So I was eating Captain Crunch and french toast for breakfast and just not good things and I was not able to workout. So I was not looking forward to coming home and weighing myself. That's why I did it on Friday, I just wanted to get it over and done with, I think my jaw may have hit the floor when I saw the number on the scale. HAHA. I have been having a hard time getting back into eating right again. It's been about a week and a half since I have worked out and eaten well. With Thanksgiving x2, and the baby, and then my Fiance and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary on Thursday the 8th. I have 4 more months till I need to start my dress fittings, then I wont be able to lose or gain any more weight. I need to lose 5-10lbs before I will be happy about my weight for my wedding and my honeymoon. I am not going to give up on my goal weight, even if I don't reach it by the wedding (although that is my goal time frame.) Always remember that tomorrow is a new day, so even if you didn't eat all that great and you didn't workout, that shouldn't stop you from starting all over again tomorrow. Everyone slips and cheats, we are human. Just remember that the only time you actually fail is when you give up!!